Chapter Two - February 2015

Every cloud has a silver lining.

• I am very blessed in the beginning of this month, very busy in the middle , very confused in the end

• Life is shifting direction to positive side in some points, resides in shadows in other points.

• I love books, I need to buy books, at least i can run away to a world of my imagination not like my world.

• Killing people is like a salad to some people, i feel bad if i have doubt of hurting someone feelings even without no intention to do so.

• if you work on yourself , you will get a reward after all.

• I feel like i am loosing her, she is pushing her self away, is it me ?! or what ?! 

Advise to myself 

Be Optimistic after all, what meant to you, will always be to you what meant not to you

well, you will figure out how to make it for you after all.

Chapter One - January 2015

In life

Helping Others is nice 

Helping too much is bad for you ONLY

but I keep doing it for same person, for years

• They Say it's a new year, a new hope , a new plan & a new you, I don't see any.

• I Am tired, confused and exhausted 

• In the beginning of this month , i was wondering what she is doing ?! she is been in recovery since last month and back on 14th, she seems happy of outcome which is great. i was wondering if she thought the same back to me like i did. or not ?!  

Advise to myself

 If a man lives on his past, then he takes out the present and forgets about the future.
if a man ignores the past, he may take out the future and forgets his present.
Keep your past, learn from mistakes and live the present to seed the future like you want it to be.